It's the day of the week when I WOW at the majority of my work week being over and push myself for just a couple more days to focus on my upcoming days off so I can catch up on things at home! I guess that's why they call it "Humpday", but I'd just rather make up my own name for it :)
This week has been crazy for me. I pulled a 12 hr shift yesterday and am getting ready to head back in for one more shift, but then I have 2 days off! Boy, do I miss the days when I was a stay at home mom! I love my job and since my kids are older now, I don't feel the daily pressure to be at home as I did when they were younger, but I miss how much more organized I was and I was on top of things! Laundry was always up to date and every nook and cranny of the house organized and clean. As I look back, I think that I was so able to do all that because that WAS my job ! It has been such an adjustment for me to go back to work, not just for me, but also for my kids. No longer do I pick them up after school and it's much more rare for me to stop in and eat lunch with them at school, which was once a weekly event. Gone are the days when they came home to a perfectly clean and organized room. My 14 yr old son reminded me of that the other day....LOL...he has fond memories of coming home to a completely rearranged and clean room! Ahhhh, those were the days:)
OK, back to reality! I'm grateful for those years and I'm grateful that after 14 years of not working, I was able to obtain a management position with a company that I love and am growing with. Life is ever-changing and I'm learning to go with the flow. There have been times that I've gotten overwhelmed by not being able to do things in the same way that I once did. I've had to jump into my own realization that I nor anyone else can expect me to be able to accomplish the same things that I did when I was full time at home. It's just not possible! 40 or more hours a week are NOT spent at home now, so I have to give myself some credit and allow myself some slack. I remind myself of this every time that I or someone else tries to measure me up on the "perfect mommy" or "perfect wife" scales! ( Or the perfect housekeeper, cook ,etc. etc. )
Ok, this has been my vent/rant for this week:) Even if noone reads this, I feel better! I'm heading back to work shortly and ready for the next 2 days off so I can get back to finding some frugal & fabulous deals !
Happy Humpday, or as I now say, Wow Wednesday !
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Somehow you must find a balance so that everyday can be a joy rather than exhausting. Have a great rest of your week!
ReplyDeleteHey Gabrielle!
ReplyDeleteWow...if my post made it seem that I was complaining or unhappy about anything, I must have written something wrong! I'm definately not...I love my life, my husband, my beautiful 3 children and my grandbaby! It gets very hectic and busy around here and I write at times just to spend that time for myself, but let me say that I don't mean for any posts to be anything other than that! God's favor over my family, our home and my career has been so awesome and I hope I never come across in any other way than grateful and content in a post. If I do, just overlook it as a momentary vent but not an overall reflection on life! Thanks for reading and the comment! :)